Sunday, September 13, 2009

Nawaitu


"Dan perintahkanlah keluargamu serta umatmu mengerjakan sembahyang, dan hendaklah engkau tekun bersabar" menunaikannya. Kami tidak meminta rezeki kepadamu, (bahkan) Kamilah yang memberi rezeki kepadamu. Dan (ingatlah) kesudahan yang baik adalah bagi orang-orang yang bertaqwa." - Surah Thahaa - Ayat 132

Just sharing cerita, nda bermaksud untuk label-ing apa, jadi panduan saja. And more, me myself belum ada anak tapi ada adik-adik yang seumur dengan apa yang akan diceritakan..

Last night, after a while nda ikut tarawih, cos of duties and "woman's nature", aku kembali tarawih, Alhamdulillah. Well, aku datang lambat sedikit, cos mula2 was thinking kan bwa mama together with me, but since ia suruh aku jalan dulu so yeah.. I went to the mosque just ONE minute before Isyak.

And so, datang tah ke masjid, and I arrived ngam2 imam angkat takbir rakaat pertama. Masa kan masuk di kawasan jemaah perempuan, pintu di kunci dari dalam, been trying to knock, masih nda d buka, so I guess, orang start sembahyang sudah, sapa jua kan membuka. So, i tried again, ada tah jua anak ani membuka, 4-5 years old maybe.

Tanpa menoleh kiri dan kanan, terus ku smbayang sunat tahiyattul masjid dua rakaat, di saf yg kedua belakang. Selepas habis sembahyang sunat, I noticed ada yang bercerita-cerita di belakang, (masa atu jemaah, rakaat ke-3 fardhu Isyak sudah), ya Rabbi, bukannya kanak-kanak 4-5 tahun tapi sudah anak dara! Masa atu aku kan start sembahyang fardhu Isyak (niat sndiri, bukan masbuk). Ku tagur tah jua..

"Sembahyang kah becerita kamu ani?"

Di jawab one of the anak dara, "Nda.." sambil giggling tapi dalam keadaan ber i'tidal (berdiri selepas rukuk) cos masa atu jemaah pun ber-i'tidal, ku diamkan lapas atu, and durang pun diam.

Then I began my solat fardhu Isyak. Selepas habis salam, I just noticed my mom baru kan habis sunat tahiyat masjid nya. And I saw, some of the kids (4-5 yrs old) start to buka kain durang sudah, tapi nda buat bising.. durang buat homework durang d belakang, which was kinda cute, but kalau buleh lagi baik ikut jemaah lah ah..

So when the tarawih started, I moved myself to the front SAF with my mother cos, the kids ke belakang sudah. After the 4th Rakaat, I went out for wudhu, cos terbatal (nda perlu lah d ceritakan kali ah kenapa batal haha). Then lepas ambil wudhu, I went in balik lah untuk teruskan tarawih. While wearing my socks and telekung, I noticed those "girls (anak dara)", masih di saf belakang sekali, and masa atu jemaah rukuk, rakaat pertama, and durang becerita while rukuk! Ku tegur lagi.. "Sembahyang kah becerita?", semua terdiam. So I left them hoping that they would start to sembahyang tah banar-banar.

I joined the jemaah next. And after rakaat ke-8, ku toleh ke belakang, cos masa ku solat atu aku terdengar bini-bini becerita bah, ndakan org tua kan?? Then guess what they were doing? Playing cards!

Aku mngurut dada tahan sabar. They knew I saw them, but they ignored. Even some of the folks, aunties and granny menoleh arah bisdia ani.. But still.. degilnya ya Rabbi! Until kan solat witir, one of the girl's nenek, menagur! I think neneknya pun kan ilang sabar kali.

Habis solat witir apa, one of my aunty (ketua muslimah) approached them, di cakapi tah, di nasihati tah lapas atu, and even the nenek I mentioned earlier, sampai memarahi cucunya ani. And so, they left the saf and went to meja makan d belakang, the girl yang memulakan main card atu, menjawab "Puas ati tah kamu tu? Puas ati kamu marah2?"

then I said to her and let the other girls mendengar "kenapa kau cakap cematu? yang kena nasihati atu yang banar jua tu? Apa niat kamu yang banarnya ke masjid ani? Kalau kan tarawih, buat cara benar2, ani malam 10 terakhir sudah, patutnya kamu tingkatkan amalan kamu! Bukannya kan berulah macam kanak-kanak yang belum akil baligh. Kamu sekolah jua ugama sampai darjah 6 kan? Even sekolah menengah pun ada jua masih belajar ugama? Indakan nda tau hukum? As simple as ATURAN SAF pun kamu nda tau? Patutnya kamu yg akil baligh sudah dmana tempatnya? Saf belakang sekali kan?? Bacaan, tasbih, zikir semasa sembayang ndakan kamu nda pandai? Apatah niat kamu ke masjid ani hah? Kalau kan tadarus saja and mau dapat duit anugeraha, tantu pulang kamu datang masa kan tadarus saja, jangantah ikut tarawih. Kamu ani seolah-olah menyeluru bah. Menyeluru Imam! Berakal-berakal tah ah, ubah niat kamu atu, sadar2 tah"

Yes I have to say that out, sampai bila kan durang berulah cematu? Honestly I noticed ulah bisdia cematu since the first few nights of Ramadhan sudah. The first night of Ramadhan it was only me and my sisters, my cousin and her sisters dalam 8 org kami tadarus, then I think it was the 3rd or 4th night, nda semena-mena makin ramai the girls ikut. Mula-mula ku bersyukur cos kesedaran kan tadarus ani usulnya ada. Tapi, after few nights, I heard one of the girl actually becakap after the tadarus "Tau kamu? kalau ikut every night, kena bagi $10/malam? Aku ikut ni every night, walaupun tah uzur.. USIN bah tu!!" Aku terkesima.Terdiam. Honestly, I never thought of that. Yes it's true, the past years memang ada "anugeraha" .. tapi I never thought of that!! Even my sisters and the usual girls/ladies yg ikut tadarus, tercengang meliat tiba-tiba banyak girls ikut tadarus ani. And my sisters? Payah lagi kan d surung2 menyuruh ikut tadarus, cos durang busy with their assignments, homeworks and hafalan at home. But those girls? Uzur pun kan ikut? Astaghfirullah Al Azim!!!

Until the second week of Ramadhan, when my aunty keep on complaining to me, the girls was "sms-ing" while the others were reciting the Quran, and they never bother to check (semak) on the others punya bacaan. And so, masa my off duty I joined for tadarus, and ku sengajakan duduk sebalah those girls yg suka "sms-ing" or "chatting" masa tadarus ani. Bukan kan cari pasal, I know, our Ustazah ada sudah menagur, but the girls never bother jua. Iatah masa tadarus ani, before their turn, they actually mencari2 muka surat for their turn to read and will keep on reading it, maybe pasal takut banyak salah or maybe kan melancarkan kali jua. Then abis turn durang.. start tah durang katik-katik HP ani. I read my part, and checked on the girls punya bacaan/tajwid jua. But at the same time, I just can't help myself, melirik2 arah 2 girls ani, becerita and "chatting" with their phones.

Ku tagur sekali, durang stopped for a while, then noticed ku lagi, they were seems to "Text-ing" to each other, ku tagur lagi.. then macam marah d tariknya Mushaf atu ke paha nya, terpaksa tah ku tagur cos etika nya handled Mushaf atu salah and nda sepatutnya d pangku d paha. Ku biarkan after that. After 3 girls membaca after that, becerita lagi durang~ and bisdia ani ketinggalan 2 mukasurat! Ku sengaja kan tah, ku tanya, "mana ayat si Pulan atu baca ah?"

Nah!! terkial2 mencari muka surat atu, padahal we were at the end of the Juzu' sudah!

Why does all these happened? Honestly, the 2 events (tarawih n tadarus) actually happened on the same girls. Kan di kata nda belajar hukum, they went to Ugama school. Yes I knew them, sekampung.. Kampung ani nda basar, and penduduknya know each other macam adi beradi, anak branak, Alhamdulillah.

Tapi entahlah, kalau di ikutkan umur the girls atu, patutnya ndakan berbuat sedemikian lagi bah. Barangkali anak lelaki ada gauknya. BUkan kan "bias" tapi, baru ku pernah encounter anak dara cematu keulahannya. I can't say I am perfect, and my sisters are the best, kami pun pernah tergelincir. Myself di zaman umur cematu, inda iski kan tarawih, nda jua iski kan tadarus, sudah umur lanjut ani barutah iski kan tarawih and tadarus.

What I am trying to say here is, What are you gonna do if those girls are your sister? Or your daughter? Or your nieces? Some of you might say, Mana indungnya? Oh don't u ask me. But I was thinking.. MAna didikannya dirumah?

Didikan indung (parents) tentang ugama and adab beribadat. Myself, my parents were strict back then, sempat warning lagi, kalau niat kan becerita, baiktah teranah d rumah! Bab solat sembahyang, nda kurang dengan sindiran and warning my parents, even sudah akil baligh and even now!

Ani sekadar untuk renungan, and panduan. Mudahan jua, anak-anak dara yang ku ceritakan di atas, menjadi anak solehah satu hari nanti, mudahan satu hari barangkali tahun depan, barangkali esok or barangkali karang durang sadar dengan apa yang durang buat, sesungguhnya Allah atu maha adil. Kitani nda tau kenapa durang berulah cematu and kitani pun nda tau kenapa Allah atu menunjukkan kitani kejadian sedemikian. Yang kitani dapat buat, Doakan saja kebaikan untuk bisdia, InsyaAllah they will be a better and successful woman nanti! AMIN!!

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